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<blockquote data-quote="SelimNiai" data-source="post: 714151" data-attributes="member: 37756"><p>I experienced the consequences of not talking last year. The way I grew up, and I sort of blame my sports coaches when they said "don't let them see that you're hurt" I took it as a life lesson, I never told anyone outside of a very select few about my troubles. This went through bullying at school and college through to a University career I messed up and subsequently failed and dropped out of my course through to now having to survive financially and socially on my own. It came to a head in August last year where the threat of losing my job and losing the bit of normality I had just tipped me over the edge. </p><p></p><p>I went through near 5 months of depression, anxiety, paranoia and panic attacks and the therapy which at the time touched on some raw subjects that I hadn't talked about and my insistence that somehow I was to blame for it all. It allowed me to share it with more people, though some may read this who I chatted to in that time and this'll be news to them, overall the more people who knew and were sympathetic and helpful the more I could rise above it. I've always jokingly put myself down in the past, still do to be honest. Just at that point I was believing myself when I said these things.</p><p></p><p>3 months since I successfully went through therapy for it all and things are looking up, I have a job I am now securely in, I have 2 amazing nephews and I'm Best Man at my Brothers wedding in August. Not out of the woods yet though, I have a lot to do if I'm ever going to get past and over the things that still rattle around this head of mine.</p><p></p><p>The thread ***le of this is right, this has taken 2 hours to go from wanting to post to knowing what and how much to say.</p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="SelimNiai, post: 714151, member: 37756"] I experienced the consequences of not talking last year. The way I grew up, and I sort of blame my sports coaches when they said "don't let them see that you're hurt" I took it as a life lesson, I never told anyone outside of a very select few about my troubles. This went through bullying at school and college through to a University career I messed up and subsequently failed and dropped out of my course through to now having to survive financially and socially on my own. It came to a head in August last year where the threat of losing my job and losing the bit of normality I had just tipped me over the edge. I went through near 5 months of depression, anxiety, paranoia and panic attacks and the therapy which at the time touched on some raw subjects that I hadn't talked about and my insistence that somehow I was to blame for it all. It allowed me to share it with more people, though some may read this who I chatted to in that time and this'll be news to them, overall the more people who knew and were sympathetic and helpful the more I could rise above it. I've always jokingly put myself down in the past, still do to be honest. Just at that point I was believing myself when I said these things. 3 months since I successfully went through therapy for it all and things are looking up, I have a job I am now securely in, I have 2 amazing nephews and I'm Best Man at my Brothers wedding in August. Not out of the woods yet though, I have a lot to do if I'm ever going to get past and over the things that still rattle around this head of mine. The thread ***le of this is right, this has taken 2 hours to go from wanting to post to knowing what and how much to say. [/QUOTE]
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